the story that never ends
maybe it's my fault.
I was to stubborn?
I didn't communicate right?
I ruin things... people.
It's like i love too much
I squeeze too hard
and just like the rabbit, they're gone.
Then I'm left alone with the mess
and I don't know what I've done to deserve....
I replay every moment in my mind
like its a movie
and I still can't find what I've done.
All I wanted was to love.
I don't mean to be overbearing
I really thought my life was worth sharing...
why you wouldn't see through my eyes..
it led to so many lies
and things you tried to hide.
I'm not one to be put in a box.
but you did.
and then you turned the lock.
Now I feel like you threw away the key
and you never knew how to love me.
You can't leave me in the dark like that,
you know it feeds my soul.
But you know what you did;
and I guess it's you who has to live.
I just wish I could understand
or see from your perspective
How can you just...
do those things
to someone you love..
and expect they just be okay?
i guess its not hard to just be
when no one else sees
or has a fn clue.
I never told a soul
just dug a deep hole
and buried it so fucking deep.
you would think by now
I could figure it all out
but I could never paint you as bad.
you were my world at one time
but at the toss of a dime
you were gone...
a ghost like the rest
but refuse to leave the nest
and one day it will all come down.
I'll be a free bird and I'll wish you were there
but it seems like maybe; a lesson learned
you never chose me; that I finally see
although I still look for blame: it wasn't it vain
it made me insane ...but I would do it again a million times
even if the outcome was the same.
all the love joy and hope
i found while with you
should be more than enough
to hold me through
I hope in your heart you know
that I will truly always love you.
#growingupishard #thestoryofselflove #belle_1188